Shooting star seen by Cloud on Wednesday, May 27, 2009
my 30th post...
well... it's being stubborn if i jus keep telling everyone and every matter that i can pull through. I'm collapsing. The pain in my body is spreading to more areas... and i wonder if i can even do duty anymore. but getting a down PES status may mean losing my place in the dream course... what should i do?
times are i feel like crying, yet i cant. Just because i am male. the societal stereotype of man implies tat man do not have the right to shed tears. Neither are they suppose to look weak. In the past, there used to be someone who can cheer me up, and i'll lose the feeling of crying when i see this specific person.
now... i'm in the rain, that person is in the sun. we live in 2 different worlds now... i wonder... am i even going to pull through my section live firing? my deja vu powers better not come true this time. For in my dreams, i got shot in my right shoulder, and i bled so much tat i ended up in hospital. and i didnt get to see if i survived that.
Life may be coming to an end for me, and now i wonder, how many people will actually feel my demise, or am i coming to a lonely end? A sad and lonely life defines me now... Lets have fate decide for me what's in my path.
10:57 PM
